Look, I can’t tell you people everything
Published by Mom May 24th, 2008 in UncategorizedBut the thing is, I work. I work a lot. Like average 16 hours a day, a lot. And it has officially become uncool.
So. I am looking into alternatives.
Firstly, I am attempting to get some help at work, so that I do NOT have to work quite so much…I have little hope that this will happen ’cause me getting help would pretty much rock the worlds of a bunch of other people who could care less that I saw Jack for the first time in 5 days, last night.
So, we are also toying with me not working. Money would be tight, but my stress level, the panic attacks that I feel when I wake up at 4 in the morning wondering what the ‘eff I forgot to do the night before because I was so tired from all the working, yeah, all that shit would be gone. And I suspect I would be a better wife and mother because of it.
I’ve never NOT had a vocation, so the thought of falling into the abyss of stay at home mommydom is terrifying, but I am becoming more and more convinced that having it all is a complete and total myth, like the 50 calorie pinkberry and no pimples after 30. So, if I HAVE to make a choice (and we’re rapidly approaching that point) I happily choose Arch and Jack over my career.
Stay tuned - because something has gotta give, and soon.
it’s so hard to be caught in that space…between CAREER and FAMILY. i’ve been there. i don’t envy your situation. having it all isn’t nearly all it’s cracked up to be.
for me, for what it’s worth, the choice was made for me when i was fired from my position. and even after being home with my son for 2 years, i still find the grass is greener no matter what side of the fence you’re on.
but that being said, even when money’s tight…in the end, you do what’s right for you and for your family.
in the meantime, hang in there, the right thing will happen for you.